Falling

If only I knew the words to say to you.
You seem too perfect for words.
Your soul is as deep and beautiful as the ocean.
Your melodies are like lullabies for my heart.
Your smile melts every part of me.
Your hugs are warm like a blanket.
You know just how to make me smile.
I like you.
A lot.
But I am too afraid to show.
What if you knew?

What if you knew that I love you.

It's The Most Wonderful Time of The Year

This Christmas I have decided to give up trying to save money for presents and opted for a more creative and thoughtful way of giving to my loved ones. I'm going to create gifts for people, which would most likely involve me having to get ye old needle & thread out and putting an apron on, with a cooking spoon armed in my right hand.

Some ideas being tossed around in my head at the moment as to what foods I could make... like shortbread, rocky road, gingerbread houses, spice biscuits or even these gorgeous strawberry cream gift cakes.

On the crafty/arty side, I may attempt to dabble a bit in beading, painting, collage work or poetry.

Thinking about all this reminds me that there is only 15 days till Christmas! It's lucky I have so much time on my hands right, especially with no more study to do. Craft/art/cooking could also be a source of relaxation for me, specifically since my life has been somewhat hectic or tiring the past couple of days. I cannot wait to get started. =]

Closure.

I can't believe it's all over. It's just too sudden this ending. But it's for the best. We shared many hugs, love, corkies, tears and smiles today. This is how it's meant to end.
End. It's sinking in that it's realistically the end.
We don't return to Tabor again as a group tomorrow.
We won't all be seeing each other.
The friendships will still be there but we won't be seeing each other everyday. Possibly not even every week, or even every month.
Till we see each other again my friend, I love you and will miss you incredibly.

So long this year. You have taught me well.
If it were not for God, I would not have changed the way I have this year.
You loved me enough that you wanted to change me for the better.
You helped me to blossom.
You planned this all. Before I was even in my mum's womb.
You looked upon me and called me yours.
You made me a quiet girl, but you use me in secret ways I do not even know.
You made me with a purpose, with dreams, with hopes, with desires.

So many regrets, but I know if I had the chance to go back and make things different, then I would not be the way I am now. I would not have the same memories. I would not have the same friendships. I like things the way they are, just like you like me the way I am.

So for now I will have to say goodbye to yesterday.
But I say hello to tomorrow. Because it brings new joy and new peace.
You are with me.

It's Been Too Long

So, finally after 6 months, I have reliable and legal internet access!

I actually got it back on Monday but really have not bothered to post until now because this week has been somewhat hectic.

1. Yits is almost over. We had our last lecture and time at Tabor today. Tomorrow till Monday we are volunteering with Encounter Youth at Schoolies down at Victor Harbor, which I suspect will be a lot of fun but also a new experience to me. Next week we finish up with Celebration Camp. It will be a sad weekend with a lot of address/email/phone number exchanging, photo taking and tears but it is a great way to end off the year. It's been an intense year and I am glad for it to be over, whilst at the same time feeling depressed because I am not going to see everyone for a while.

2. Summer is here. We had a heatwave of a week, in the thirty degree celsius plus range. It hit about 37 or 38 at one stage. The weather has since cooled down a little, but temperatures are expected to pick up over the weekend.

3. Next year is still in the process of planning. I have just a little over a week to finalise my university preferences and still have to call up a number of people from UniSA tomorrow. If all else fails, I will work full time and go travelling. I do, however, not want to put study on hold if I can help it. I'll be out of university by the age of twenty-five if I'm lucky.

4. I have not told many people of this at all, but I felt drawn to now as I know there are many people in the same situation as me and feel somewhat discouraged. I decided to stay committed to being single for at least six months from the date of my last breakup. I found the commitment hard at start and I still do sometimes find it hard, but I figure it's all worth it in the end. This commitment was not to give me time to go 'man-hunting', but to have time to grow, time to be with friends, time to think and time to reassess myself. I do not consider anything wrong with myself, but I have found the importance of working out why I want to be with someone of the opposite sex. I guess I couldn't pick it out before, but I find I am a bit selfish in relationships, there was times when the only reason that I was with someone was because I felt somewhat whole and without them I would feel alone. I guess that is what a relationship is partly, but there should be love, you should be with someone because you love them. In a way, I did love the previous people I was with, but I was in the relationship for the wrong reasons. That could make better sense, but I just can't help that right now.

So... that's a few pieces of what's been going on in my life since the last I blogged.

I suppose some kind of lengthy sleep is in order for I, before I begin Schoolies activities tomorrow. Oh, and vote. Bob Day for Makin. :)

The Fat versus The Thin

I got a call back from Hungry Jacks a couple of days ago (which was actually later than they said they were going to call back). They informed me that I got the job and I have orientation day at some other Hungry Jacks this Saturday.

But Boost Juice rang me just yesterday in regards to a resume I sent in a few days back. I have interview with them this afternoon. The funny thing is they didn't set a actual time, they just said I could rock up there at any time in the afternoon. Anyway, that's where I'm about to run off now before the school kids finish and flood the shopping centre. I'm nervous, I really I hope I get the job because I would prefer to work at Boost than at Hungry Jacks.

A little prayer would be helpful. Thanks. :)

Appreciation of friends

As of lately, especially since being single, the one thing I have learnt to appreciate more is my friendships.

I think it is always important for one to have friends. To have people around them that they can trust, lean on and enjoy life with. Life was never meant to be spent every single day in lonliness. There is one quote I always remember when thinking about my friendships and what they mean. I have heard many different versions of it, but it is the only one I could find that would suit best (thankyou Google!). "Friends are God's way of taking care of us." When I remember that quote, it always seems to comfort me. It reassures me that God does care and He isn't leaving me in the world to fend for myself.

Last night I had an interesting conversation in his car as he was driving me home from Pizza Hut. We talked of many things but I guess it didn't bother either of us if we didn't make sense of what we were saying, because we were enjoying each other's company and it's those moments I have with friends that I like the most.

Another thing I learnt from last night is that I like it when people take the time to listen to my own views and opinions, and I guess that is what my friend appreciated also. I wish there were more people out in the world like that. There needs to be more people that don't criticize you when you're speaking your own mind, that put all their thoughts aside and just listen to you speak. I find people who constantly interrupt or talk about what they want to say overwhelming. Of course, they can speak their own opinion, but there is a time for that and I
think that it should be our aim to be selfless and let others speak before us.

Six weeks.

With only six weeks left of classes at Tabor as of Monday, I'm beginning to grieve the end of this life-changing year already. So many new life-long friendships made, so many things learnt and experienced, so many changes in my own life, so many memories I want to hold. It scares me to think that it is all going to be over in just a short time.

My new friends I keep, I will see outside of this year and beyond, but it just won't be the same. No hanging out along Goodwood Rd during lunch break, no terrorising the other students at Tabor, no road trips and car convoying to different places, no driving 10 times faster than the speed limit along the Tabor driveway.

Time is going too fast and there's nothing I can do to make it stop. All these moments of fun, joy, sorrow and unity will soon become just memories. Memories we can't relive.

I would not have wanted to do this year with anyone else. I'm glad we did this year together. We started off, just awkward strangers and now look where we are! We are family, we portray the best example of unity.

One year has almost past, one year of love, one year of growth, one year of experiences. I would not exchange this year for anything different. It just would not be as worthwhile.

Employment

Well, not quite yet employed, but I am almost there.

I have an interview at Hungry Jacks on Saturday next week.
Wish me luck! :)

Mixture of life.

I have been lacking in the process of keeping my blog up-to-date. It's not that I have been reluctant to. I just forget. I get so caught up in making my life busy that I forget to slow down and write my thoughts and emotions.

In the past week I..

-Went to Katie's farm out in Narrung, next to Lake Alexandrina with a group from Yits on Wednesday night through to Thursday arvo. Experienced making my first s'more, which was quite good. 
Spent the night in an old Child Care Centre, which was interesting to say the least. 
The town is mostly populated by aboriginals, most parents aren't responsible of their children, so they stay up all night roaming the streets. We had some kids banging on the walls and the windows from the outside at about 1am, until the rain ruined their fun.
But overall I enjoyed the trip, it was great to get away from the city life.

-Spent a whole day walking up and down Rundle Mall yesterday, shopping. Spent about $20 and purchased Hanson's Underneath album, a top and two M*A*S*H dvds ($2 each!). Then spent an hour or so enjoying the semi-nature in the heart of Adelaide at the Botanical Gardens.

-Today I worked on a cooking assignment for Life Skills while having fun, with my two friends.

So yeah, you could say my life has been somewhat busy for the past several days. But I guess I kind of like it that way, I dread doing nothing at all because it would lead me to feel somewhat lonely and depressed. I guess that is why I blog. I find I am not listened to most of the time, so I guess this is my outlet to do that. To pour out my emotions, my pain, my experiences.. 
without being too specific to what they are.
I hope I sometimes do give hope to people. I hope some people read this and know that they are not alone in what they are feeling or going through.

Crying out.

Tonight is just not the same.
My heart just feels somewhat unsatisfied.
I do not feel right.

I could spend a whole 24 hour hours with friends, and not feel full happiness.
There is more to this life. There is more to life than money, more than friends, more than romance, more than music, more than fame.
No matter how much I gain, I can never feel satisfied.
There is something far greater than all of these things.

But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.-Phillippians 3:7-8 (NIV)


My life has true meaning because of Christ.

But I cannot help but feel empty. My heart continues to cry out for more of God in my life.
I need more. I long for more.

The Unofficial Guestbook*

I know some people read my blog... but there could be a whole lot of other people who are hiding and are too scared to leave a comment.

So here's your chance to let yourself be known!

Leave a comment. Tell me about yourself, what is your favourite food?


(*Kind of 'stole' this idea from ThisIsKarina)

Love.

We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home.

- TWLOHA

Unwell.

ton·sil·li·tis (tŏn'sə-lī'tĭs)
n.

Inflammation of the tonsils.


:(

These were the best days of our lives...

No offence to all 12-year-olds, you're all awesome... but you wouldn't be able to understand most of this.

If you are under the age of 12... you shouldn't even read this.

Just because you were born in '97 doesn't mean you're a 90s kid.

It's not like you could remember the original Simpsons. I am sorry but three conscious years of the 90s just wont cut it.


You're a 90s kid if:


You can finish this [Ice Ice _ _ _ _ ] BABY (too cold.. too cold..)


You remember watching:
- Hey Arnold (HEY! Football head!)
- The Bugs Bunny Show
- Ren & Stimpy
- Pinky and the Brain
- AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
- Rocko's Modern Life. (that was a hoot!)


You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"


You remember:
- Playschool with Monica
- Step by Step
- Family Matters
- Dinosaurs
- Boy Meets World


You remember when it was actually worth getting up early
on a Saturday to watch cartoons.


You remember reading "Goosebumps".
And "Animorphs". (and watching them both on tv, even though GB gave me nightmares.)


Paul Jennings and Andy Griffiths were the funniest authors of all time.


You watched Round the Twist! 


You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school. (and still do!)


You said "NOT" after (almost) every sentence . . . not


When everything was settled by:
- Rock, Scissors, Paper
- Dip dip...
- There's a party by the pool, would you like to come?
- Eeny, meeny, miny, mo!


When Cops & Robbers was a daily activity.


When we played Tiggy, Safe, 40/40 and Hide & Seek until our legs grew numb.


You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time.


Tazos owned chip packets.


Captain Planet. He's a Hero. (gonna take pollution down to ZERO!)


You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together. Duh


You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular. Heck yes.


You remember when Yo-Yos were cool. (and all those neato tricks!)


You remember those Where's Wally books.


You remember eating Warheads. (& fads!)



You remember Push Pops and Lucky Dips. (& mellody pops! they were the bomb!)


And YoGo gorilla... and the original Cocoa Pops monkey: "It's just like a chocolate milkshake - only crunchy!"


Home-made birthday cards were cool, especially the ones where you'd cut a mouth into it so that it opened up and a tongue popped out. (They were the best cards I've ever made, anyone still remember how to make them? I forgot. :<)


Making those little paper fortune things, and then predicting your life with them.


Tamagotchis had to be banned in school because of their popularity.


Furby. (And still have it! HAH)


Baby Born. (I wasn't cool enough to own one. *cries*)


You haven't always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet.


"Emo" didn't exist.


And Windows 95 was the best.


You watched the original cartoons of Rugrats, Power Rangers, and Ninja Turtles.


You knew Michael Jordan was the best all-time basketballer who played for the Chicago Bulls, even though we don't follow NBA basketball.


Barbie & Ken by Mattel owned the shelves. (YES. Who didn't run to the big pink aisle the first step they took into a store)


World 4 Kids, before Toys R Us. (and those awesome mini kids trolleys)


Playdough was the coolest stuff invented. (and the green goo stuff that used to make fart sounds)


You understand when I say "Cheez TV". (I miss Jade, Ryan and that talkover guy, those guys were owned my television in the mornings. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H9gHZI1_UXI)


You collected all the Troll dolls.


If you even know what a walkman is. (I broke mine when dancing around to Aqua :<)


The original Pokemon with Ash, Misty and Brock.


Before those try-hards at the Yu-Gi-Oh production plant. (hah. And Beyblade)


You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?" (hahahah, I got so scared)


You know the Macarena off by heart. (it was enscribed on my heart in year 2)


"Talk to the hand" . . . enough said (Coz the face aint listnen!)


You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"


You went to McDonald's to play in the playground, and Happy Meals only cost $2.95 for a cheeseburger, small fries and coke. (Those were the days)


You remember playing on merry go rounds at the playground.


Before the MySpace frenzy . . .


Before the Internet & text messaging . . .


Before Sidekicks & iPods . . .


Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX . . .


Before Spongebob . . .


Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night. (Never regret doing that either! I'd do anything to hang out with my friends next door)


When light up sneakers were cool. (and those curly shoelaces!)


When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.


When petrol was $0.65 a litre & Caller ID was a new thing.


When you had to be one lucky kid to get a mobile phone before you were 16.


When we recorded stuff on VCRs.


Way back.


Before we realized all this would eventually disappear.


Who would have thought you'd miss the 90s so much!!!!!


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Univercities.

Yesterday and Friday I went to various unversity open days. It opened my eyes to so many different paths and opportunities, but through going to some information sessions from different courses I've decided which direction I want to head in. If someone had asked me a year ago if I would be interested in enrolling in a course such as Bachelor of Science in Marine Biology, Biodiversity & Conservation or Environmental Management I would've said no. But it's just recently that I've discovered the passion I have and always have had for nature, wildlife and conserving the environment. And so, I'm going to do everything I can to head down that path because it is where my passion lays.

Anyway, as I was saying... I tired myself from walking all over universities this weekend. Not only did I find what sort of course I want to enrol in, I also found just how big universities are (even in Adelaide!). They're all own cities in themselves. Cafes, people, buildings, atms, people, clubs, food, people, lakes, stunning views and did I mention people?!
This has inspired me to give a rating to each of the universities I went to this weekend:

Flinders University:
It is so far away from where I live, but when you get there and turn around you get a most marvellous view of Marion, Glenelg and the ocean. It took my breath away. Most of the campus was built in the 80s, so some lecture halls and rooms 
don't have airconditioning. The campus has a travel agency, couple of cafes, bistro/bar, post office, bank branch etc.
It also has a lake, which would be a great place to sit and chill out with friends or just to sit and read.
Unlike the other universities, Flinders has accomodation on campus which is specially run by the university.
The accomodation is very affordable, a 3 year old townhouse sharing with 4 others would set you back $120 per week.
There is also the units which are $120 and the University Hall which is catered is $205.
Overall it is a good university with great teaching staff and I would consider going there, having no aircon wouldn't bother me.
4.5 stars - ***/

Uni SA (city west campus):
This was the second university I visited, it's big but rather in a upwards big not a horizontal big, lots of floors and stairs. Very easy to get lost in that place, but then again, you can anywhere else. It's a fairly new campus from what I understand, built a couple of years ago. Great airconditioning. But even with all the good facilities and newness of it all, I couldn't help but feel very intimidated because of the size of the lecture halls and all the stairs and people. But if I did end up choosing USA I would be doing a lot of it at the Mawson Lakes campus which has really good facilities for environmental students with the wetlands and all. However, this university doesn't offer a bachelor of science in Marine Biology which is a little sad.
3 stars ***

University of Adelaide:
The last university I visited, it also an old university, some of it being probably built before Flinders. Some classrooms are brand new but some classrooms are fairly old and have 
squeeky and uncomfortable chairs and desks.
They offer accomodation in which they run but to get to university everyday it would consist of some walking and some catching the free city circle bus. This is the only university that doesn't offer the foundation studies/program. But they do advise students who haven't done year 12 to do the foundation course at USA or Flinders and then enrol at Adelaide.
In summary, it's a fairly good university with a widespread of choices in programs and courses.
3.5 stars ***/

All up I had an interesting weekend and I am feeling encouraged that I have found what I am most passionate about in university and a possible future career. I wouldn't really care what university I end up going to, just as long as I am studying what I like most.

Broken.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Moonlight fun

Since when is it ever okay to stay up till freaking 3-4 in the morning?
Music blaring till 2am.
Loud drunkeness talking 10pm to 3am.
Did you ever stop to think it would be polite to be more quiet?
Did you think about the girl who believes in an early night's rest?
No, no and no.

I'm not okay

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)

-My Chemical Romance, I'm Not Okay

For this time being, I'm not okay.
But I will hold on.
Because I know you will deliver me.

Introverted.

I walk into the room.
I enchange a few waves.
I try to speak,
But nothing comes out.

As I walk deeper in,
I feel the eyes gazed upon me.
But yet I continue to fake a smile,
Hoping they don't see the real me.

I begin to feel trapped.
My breaths begin to shorten.
My heart beats a little faster.
I want to scream out loud.

But no one cares,
No one notices,
That I feel inclined to be here.
I am nothing but a coward.

I walk to the corner,
Stand in the shadows.
If I be quiet,
Then no one will know I'm here.

What does it mean to be like me?
Is what I am seen as okay in society?
Would you accept me?
Or would you reject me?
Is it okay that I am what I am?
Or is it a curse?
Nothing but a throwaway, not worthy to the world.
I wonder if you know what it's like to be me?
What if you did?
What if you didn't?
Would you try to change who I am?
Or would you be alright with me?
But for now I am okay with myself.
Because I know He is alright with me.

First Time Nerves

Okay, so ever had someone stick a needle in your arm so hard that it breaks into one of your blood veins in your arm and then suck a large amount of blood out of your blood flow?

That's what I'm volunteering to do tomorrow. I've never given blood in my whole life. The only assoiciation I've had with a needle is a few vaccinations from vaious life-threatening diseases. I watched my boyfriend give blood while I was with him in Melbourne, I felt a bit uneased about it, watching some of the blood that had been sucked out of my boyfriend's arm rocking back and forth in a bag on this little machine.

It's all for a good cause though, isn't it? And I also get free food and drink at the end. Anything with free food can't be half bad?!

Princess

When I was a little girl, my mama used to lock me in the attic when I was bad, which was pretty often. And I would- I would pretend I was a princess... trapped in a tower by a wicked queen. And then suddenly this knight... on a white horse with these colors flying would come charging up and draw his sword. And I would wave. And he would climb up the tower and rescue me. But never in all the time... that I had this dream did the knight say to me, "Come on, baby, I'll put you up in a great condo."

(Quote taken from Pretty Woman)

When I was young, I used to dream of becoming a princess and being whisked away by a knight. That's what most females have dreamed in their lives also.

Now in present day, those dreams have faded away, because I soon realised there is no chance that I'd become a princess and there is an even lesser chance of a knight in shining armour on a white horse carrying me away and making me his wife. But I do believe in love and that I can fall in love with a male whom I meet in my life (in which I have).

The general idea of this entry was not to talk about falling in love with the opposite sex but rather how important it is finding my identity in my creator and letting him whisk me away like a knight who has come to save the day.

Recently I bought the book 'Captivating' by John and Stasi Eldredge. I haven't read it yet, only most of the Intro but
I'm finding it very intriguing, not just by reading the blurb and intro but also the cover artwork. Now I know the saying 'don't 
judge a book by it's cover' but I think the cover artwork explains very well what the book 
is about. It has a girl standing a field, basking in the sun and looking forward at a castle in 
the distance. 

"Every little girl has dreams of being swept up into a great adventure, of being the beautiful princess. Sadly, when women grow up, they are often swept up into a life filled merely with duty and demands. Many Christian women are tired, struggling under the weight of the pressure to be a "good servant," a nurturing caregiver, or a capable home manager.

What WILD AT HEART did for men, CAPTIVATING can do for women. This groundbreaking book shows readers the glorious design of women before the fall, describes how the feminine heart can be restored, and casts a vision for the power, freedom, and beauty of a woman released to be all she was meant to be. By revealing the core desires every woman shares - to be romanced, to play an irreplaceable role in a grand adventure, and to unveil beauty - John and Stasi Eldredge invite women to recover their feminine hearts, created in the image of an intimate and passionate God. Further, they encourage men to discover the secret of a woman's soul and to delight in the beauty and strength women were created to offer."

God planted a desire in female to become a princess and -like Captivating explains- be swept into a wonderful adventure. And it is His desire for us to find our identity, that we are worth more than gold to Him and are His princesses. He also wishes to capture our hearts and for us to fall in love with Him, to yearn to be His children.
He is the castle, while we are the girls in the field keeping our focus and direction on the castle and enjoy His presence (the sunlight) and worship Him.

Of The Victorian Sort

Well I am now in the land of Victorians.
I'm enjoying it very much here, it's very cold where I am staying (Reinhard's house) but there are many pretty surroundings. Reinhard has driven me to different places around, including a couple of lookouts. It's so amazing, the view from the lookouts. Very different from what we have back in South Aus.
I think I could call this place home in the near future, I know I'd very much like to...

Attention

It's something that everybody craves... but why?

Attention: Concentration of the mental powers upon an object; a close or careful observing or listening.

I've never seen myself as a real 'clingy' type person, but I have recently noticed that I become quite upset if no one pays attention to me, or acknowledges my presence. For a few days a week I am surrounded by people, all day and sometimes night. Some of my close acquaintances may converse with during my lectures or on the bus, which are the moments I treasure. But I find on a regular basis, I am not noticed, which is mainly due to my introvert type personality. Some people do take the time to get to know me, some don't. Some don't include me in the conversation, some do.

Even though I am an introvert, I don't like being by myself for very long amounts of time. But when I do want attention, I only want it in small amounts, by only having a few people around me. Sometimes I don't mind being around a big group of people, but many times I have been in a bad mood and just wish that everyone could away. Then when they do, I find I am alone and I feel in even a more worse mood than I started off with.

Anyway, back to what I was originally going to say. I hate it when I am ignored or forgotten by people I love and love me back.

Winter is approaching

I can see the white thickness in the distance
Slowly creeping closer
The trees dance about in unison
But they never leave the ground
Crystal tears gather on the green floor
They sit there sparkling in beauty
The showers change directions
This way, and that
The wind guiding each fall
Summer is hidden far away
As Winter pushes to be amongst it all.

My fears:
(old and some new)

- Dark
- Being alone
- Thunderstorms
- Deep water
- Heights
- Being forgotten