Univercities.

Yesterday and Friday I went to various unversity open days. It opened my eyes to so many different paths and opportunities, but through going to some information sessions from different courses I've decided which direction I want to head in. If someone had asked me a year ago if I would be interested in enrolling in a course such as Bachelor of Science in Marine Biology, Biodiversity & Conservation or Environmental Management I would've said no. But it's just recently that I've discovered the passion I have and always have had for nature, wildlife and conserving the environment. And so, I'm going to do everything I can to head down that path because it is where my passion lays.

Anyway, as I was saying... I tired myself from walking all over universities this weekend. Not only did I find what sort of course I want to enrol in, I also found just how big universities are (even in Adelaide!). They're all own cities in themselves. Cafes, people, buildings, atms, people, clubs, food, people, lakes, stunning views and did I mention people?!
This has inspired me to give a rating to each of the universities I went to this weekend:

Flinders University:
It is so far away from where I live, but when you get there and turn around you get a most marvellous view of Marion, Glenelg and the ocean. It took my breath away. Most of the campus was built in the 80s, so some lecture halls and rooms 
don't have airconditioning. The campus has a travel agency, couple of cafes, bistro/bar, post office, bank branch etc.
It also has a lake, which would be a great place to sit and chill out with friends or just to sit and read.
Unlike the other universities, Flinders has accomodation on campus which is specially run by the university.
The accomodation is very affordable, a 3 year old townhouse sharing with 4 others would set you back $120 per week.
There is also the units which are $120 and the University Hall which is catered is $205.
Overall it is a good university with great teaching staff and I would consider going there, having no aircon wouldn't bother me.
4.5 stars - ***/

Uni SA (city west campus):
This was the second university I visited, it's big but rather in a upwards big not a horizontal big, lots of floors and stairs. Very easy to get lost in that place, but then again, you can anywhere else. It's a fairly new campus from what I understand, built a couple of years ago. Great airconditioning. But even with all the good facilities and newness of it all, I couldn't help but feel very intimidated because of the size of the lecture halls and all the stairs and people. But if I did end up choosing USA I would be doing a lot of it at the Mawson Lakes campus which has really good facilities for environmental students with the wetlands and all. However, this university doesn't offer a bachelor of science in Marine Biology which is a little sad.
3 stars ***

University of Adelaide:
The last university I visited, it also an old university, some of it being probably built before Flinders. Some classrooms are brand new but some classrooms are fairly old and have 
squeeky and uncomfortable chairs and desks.
They offer accomodation in which they run but to get to university everyday it would consist of some walking and some catching the free city circle bus. This is the only university that doesn't offer the foundation studies/program. But they do advise students who haven't done year 12 to do the foundation course at USA or Flinders and then enrol at Adelaide.
In summary, it's a fairly good university with a widespread of choices in programs and courses.
3.5 stars ***/

All up I had an interesting weekend and I am feeling encouraged that I have found what I am most passionate about in university and a possible future career. I wouldn't really care what university I end up going to, just as long as I am studying what I like most.

Broken.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Moonlight fun

Since when is it ever okay to stay up till freaking 3-4 in the morning?
Music blaring till 2am.
Loud drunkeness talking 10pm to 3am.
Did you ever stop to think it would be polite to be more quiet?
Did you think about the girl who believes in an early night's rest?
No, no and no.

I'm not okay

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)

-My Chemical Romance, I'm Not Okay

For this time being, I'm not okay.
But I will hold on.
Because I know you will deliver me.

Introverted.

I walk into the room.
I enchange a few waves.
I try to speak,
But nothing comes out.

As I walk deeper in,
I feel the eyes gazed upon me.
But yet I continue to fake a smile,
Hoping they don't see the real me.

I begin to feel trapped.
My breaths begin to shorten.
My heart beats a little faster.
I want to scream out loud.

But no one cares,
No one notices,
That I feel inclined to be here.
I am nothing but a coward.

I walk to the corner,
Stand in the shadows.
If I be quiet,
Then no one will know I'm here.

What does it mean to be like me?
Is what I am seen as okay in society?
Would you accept me?
Or would you reject me?
Is it okay that I am what I am?
Or is it a curse?
Nothing but a throwaway, not worthy to the world.
I wonder if you know what it's like to be me?
What if you did?
What if you didn't?
Would you try to change who I am?
Or would you be alright with me?
But for now I am okay with myself.
Because I know He is alright with me.

First Time Nerves

Okay, so ever had someone stick a needle in your arm so hard that it breaks into one of your blood veins in your arm and then suck a large amount of blood out of your blood flow?

That's what I'm volunteering to do tomorrow. I've never given blood in my whole life. The only assoiciation I've had with a needle is a few vaccinations from vaious life-threatening diseases. I watched my boyfriend give blood while I was with him in Melbourne, I felt a bit uneased about it, watching some of the blood that had been sucked out of my boyfriend's arm rocking back and forth in a bag on this little machine.

It's all for a good cause though, isn't it? And I also get free food and drink at the end. Anything with free food can't be half bad?!