Exciting matters.

Today in the mail I received an envelope with the blue, white and gold coat of arms in the right hand corner. Realizing what this envelope had packaged for me, I ripped it open and tore out the letter that was inside.

"OFFER OF A PLACE IN THE 2008 FOUNDATION COURSE"

So without further ado, I am pleased to announce this year (and hopefully beyond years) I am a student at Flinders University. I sound so silly making all this fuss, but I don't think anyone could really understand how important and exciting this is for me. Exactly two years ago I was year twelve full of hopes and dreams, six months later and it seemed all those hopes and dreams had been wiped clear when I suddenly opted out from school. I recall glancing at one of the Uni Adelaide buildings and thinking to myself that I could never be at such a place. A year and a half later I am now an accepted student at Flinders. As long as I put in the effort, I know I can achieve anything.

The Foundation Course may not be as intense or exciting as any degree, but I know it's a start and it will definitely assist me in my future years of studying a degree. It's no full time course, runs March till September and each topic only runs about once or twice during the week. Most of it, until July, will be studied online because I live about an hour and a half away from the campus (by bus) and all topics will be held at night (fun fun). So if you are studying, or have studied, online... then advice will be greatly appreciated. I may also appreciate encouragement as motivation is not one of my strengths.

As for 2009 and beyond, I don't really know what I want to be studying at Flinders, but hopefully the FC will assist me in direction also.

I don't officially start until mid-March, which will give me some good time to continue my (it seems) endless job hunting, catching up with friends, watching dvds (Scrubs is a favorable) and other things to do before I start study (perhaps then I should make a list).

Geez...

The things you do when you're depressed... mark my words, the below post is a definite example.

I feel much better compared to how I was feeling Thursday/Friday. As most people say... v-day is just a Hallmark centered 'celebration'. I don't understand how I did let it get to me. Thank you to those who encouraged me. =]

Anyway, on to happier subjects.

Last night I started filming footage for a video I am making for my old church's youth group, that will eventually be handed out to parents and local high schools once the final product is finished (that makes me feel so much nervous saying that). This will be the second 'professional' video I have made, although the first one was just something I came up with to promote the youth group small groups and I did also just used WMM to edit it (SUICIDE!). I plan to use Sony Vegas to edit this video. Hopefully it will all be done by sometime in April.

Update with the job hunting, no luck still but I know I just have to be patient, somewhere out there someone is looking for a nineteen year old to fill their position.

I apply for Flinders University tomorrow, hoping to get into the Foundation Course, as it'd guarantee me a place as long as I pass and choose the right topics for what I hope to be studying.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. (Prov. 3:5-6)

Down With Love.

Valentine's Day.... possibly the worst day on record every year for a single person.

I attempted boycotting, tried to ignore the whole day, tried to even stay away from my computer for the day because I knew it'd just bring me misery. Told myself not to heighten my hopes when there was mail in the letterbox. I was going well until last night and today. V day is still happening in some places of the earth and I just cannot escape the worst.

No one really does care about me in such a way that they'd feel much obliged to leave me a nice message or even a small "Happy Valentines Day".

Everyone I thought were my friends abandoned me. Forgot about me. Left me out of their greetings.

Heck. I even have high doubts that absolutely no one will read this because in reality, no one actually does care about me.

I Heard the Old Man Say We Need the Rain.

Bad news
- I didn't get the job at the Florist.
- I am still unsuccessfully searching for a job.
- There are some people I have had to cut off all communication with.

Good news
- Today I made two purchases of two VERY good cds.
[Ben Folds - Naked Baby Photos] A mix of live, uncut, raw songs. Something to turn up loud and dance my cares away to. Most fav song on the cd is Underground (live at ziggy's, Winston-Salem, NC 8/12/85) "Show me the moshpit".
[Mae - Singularity] Album released recently, last year, a lot heavier than the music from their previous albums... especially Destination: Beautiful. But all up a good cd. My fav song is Crazy 8's "I’ve never ever loved you so hard. But is that reality? We can’t face the battle in the dark."
- I also gave blood today, all went well, although even though I have been to give blood two other times the needle scared me a bit more this time.
-Autumn slowly creeps around the corner. I am looking forward to noticing a change of colour in the trees and watching the leaves fall, twirling and spinning around like a feather.

So it seems I have a some things of positive and negative happening in my life right now. But I suppose if I get through all this with two feet on the ground, I'll get there.

The date that marks my six months of single-ism is approaching soon. I have some very mixed emotions about it. I feel encouraged that I have made it thus far and have grown to know that being single can be good and boyfriends aren't the most important thing in the world right now. But feeling a bit sad at the same time, to know that I haven't a significant other. People always tell me that it will happen some day, I know it will, but I guess sometimes waiting isn't so much fun as it's cracked up to be.

Here I lie my thoughts and dreams for today.
For tomorrow lies a new day, dawning new hope, new dreams, new inspiration and a new light.

Nerves

Agh. So today I make the long trip to the eastern side of Adelaide to have my job interview. I'm so nervous. This is my first job interview out of all the applications I sent out last week. I'm so sure I'm not going to get it. What are the chances of getting the first job you get an interview for? But I suppose there is also a slim chance I could get it.

If I get this job, I will go crazy for sure. I happen to know florists have a fairly good pay-rate, even I would most likely get paid more in this junior position than I got paid at Hungry Jack's. Anyhow... every dollar I earn will help fund towards getting a new computer and getting the internship. I need a new computer so bad, this one is slowly dying, I think a reformat will kill it.

I think I'd like working at a florist. I absolutely love flowers; their scent, the range colours, how elaborate each petal is. Plus, I'd come home smelling beautiful! I actually might consider getting into a TAFE course in Floristry if I don't get into the Internship.
I'm thinking ahead of myself now.

Wish me luck on my job interview.
=)