Falling

If only I knew the words to say to you.
You seem too perfect for words.
Your soul is as deep and beautiful as the ocean.
Your melodies are like lullabies for my heart.
Your smile melts every part of me.
Your hugs are warm like a blanket.
You know just how to make me smile.
I like you.
A lot.
But I am too afraid to show.
What if you knew?

What if you knew that I love you.

It's The Most Wonderful Time of The Year

This Christmas I have decided to give up trying to save money for presents and opted for a more creative and thoughtful way of giving to my loved ones. I'm going to create gifts for people, which would most likely involve me having to get ye old needle & thread out and putting an apron on, with a cooking spoon armed in my right hand.

Some ideas being tossed around in my head at the moment as to what foods I could make... like shortbread, rocky road, gingerbread houses, spice biscuits or even these gorgeous strawberry cream gift cakes.

On the crafty/arty side, I may attempt to dabble a bit in beading, painting, collage work or poetry.

Thinking about all this reminds me that there is only 15 days till Christmas! It's lucky I have so much time on my hands right, especially with no more study to do. Craft/art/cooking could also be a source of relaxation for me, specifically since my life has been somewhat hectic or tiring the past couple of days. I cannot wait to get started. =]

Closure.

I can't believe it's all over. It's just too sudden this ending. But it's for the best. We shared many hugs, love, corkies, tears and smiles today. This is how it's meant to end.
End. It's sinking in that it's realistically the end.
We don't return to Tabor again as a group tomorrow.
We won't all be seeing each other.
The friendships will still be there but we won't be seeing each other everyday. Possibly not even every week, or even every month.
Till we see each other again my friend, I love you and will miss you incredibly.

So long this year. You have taught me well.
If it were not for God, I would not have changed the way I have this year.
You loved me enough that you wanted to change me for the better.
You helped me to blossom.
You planned this all. Before I was even in my mum's womb.
You looked upon me and called me yours.
You made me a quiet girl, but you use me in secret ways I do not even know.
You made me with a purpose, with dreams, with hopes, with desires.

So many regrets, but I know if I had the chance to go back and make things different, then I would not be the way I am now. I would not have the same memories. I would not have the same friendships. I like things the way they are, just like you like me the way I am.

So for now I will have to say goodbye to yesterday.
But I say hello to tomorrow. Because it brings new joy and new peace.
You are with me.