Because I am cool like that and my holidays are quickly disappearing from my current life, which quite frankly is probably best for me since I have become quite lazy.
I think this would be a good chance to talk about my holidays, I've just been staring at this post with only that first paragraph for the past 10 minutes and not really knowing what to talk about.
My holidays, overall, have been pretty amazing. I think I took them for granted way too much but all in all I enjoyed them to full extent. My holidays didn't really have an official start, I left my course with Scripture Union in Queensland in September-ish and pretty much bummed around for a very long time after going on a short vay-cay to Brisbane. I regret for the amount of laziness I let myself get into, with the exception of volunteering at Schoolies weekend and getting my uni application sent in November. I don't think I got a whole lot done in those 2 to 2 and a half months to be honest, shamefully.
Christmas and New Years came around and I think that's when my motivation boot kicked me up my backside. I got out a bit more and did a lot of reading and lessened my hours spent on the internet. Start of January I got to spend another glorious week by the Murray River with friends and family. We've spent annual trips there for over a decade but I never get sick of it. Renmark is such a beautiful place and it's good to be away from the city for a little while.
Since my lazy break I've decorated my bare bedroom walls a bit, had my two best friends from Queensland visit me and started to get into spending more time with God. I'm really glad that I've had this sudden burst of motivation to read the Bible and spend some time just not doing anything except marveling God's love. In the past I would start reading a book of the Bible but then miss one day of reading and never get back into it, but now I think I have a real desire to actually read the Word every day. It's cool.
Next week I start my journey with my degree in Social Science (Youth Work) and I'm genuinely looking forward to not knowing where it's going to take me. I need to go into this school year with no expectations so that God can use me and talk to me and teach me in ways I would never imagine. God gave me this passion for youth work for a reason and I'm going to find out what that is.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Filled with overflowing joy
Make A Joyful Noise To The Lord
A Psalm
Oh sing to the Lord a new song,
for he has done marvelous things!
His right hand and his holy arm
have worked salvation for him.
The Lord has made known his salvation;
he has revealed his righteousness in the sight of the nations.
He has remembered his steadfast love and faithfulness
to the house of Israel.
All the ends of the earth have seen
the salvation of our God.
A Psalm
Oh sing to the Lord a new song,
for he has done marvelous things!
His right hand and his holy arm
have worked salvation for him.
The Lord has made known his salvation;
he has revealed his righteousness in the sight of the nations.
He has remembered his steadfast love and faithfulness
to the house of Israel.
All the ends of the earth have seen
the salvation of our God.
Make a joyful noise to the Lord, all the earth;
break forth into joyous song and sing praises!
Sing praises to the Lord with the lyre,
with the lyre and the sound of melody!
With trumpets and the sound of the horn
make a joyful noise before the King, the Lord!
Let the sea roar, and all that fills it;
the world and those who dwell in it!
Let the rivers clap their hands;
let the hills sing for joy together
before the Lord, for he comes
to judge the earth.
He will judge the world with righteousness,
and the peoples with equity.
- Psalm 98, ESV
Friday, January 28, 2011
Time for everything
God loved me enough to make me realise that even if all things in my life become nothing but crumbles and disasters, he is still there and is the rock I can stand on. He is my source of strength, life, love and hope.
He brings me through trials and tribulations so that I may not only be built up in love but to also rely on Him wholeheartedly.
It amazes me how much everything in my life was planned out accordingly, even though at times I feel like it's all over the place, he put circumstances in my life at just the right time. Just as much as the times of comfort God gives me are placed at the right points of my life, so are the downfalls.
Patience is something that I am becoming to understand but also forever trying to get a grip on, because God will place the desires of my heart when the time is right.
"For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven" (Ecclesiastes 3:1, ESV)
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Now playing: Switchfoot - Enough To Let Me Go
via FoxyTunes
He brings me through trials and tribulations so that I may not only be built up in love but to also rely on Him wholeheartedly.
It amazes me how much everything in my life was planned out accordingly, even though at times I feel like it's all over the place, he put circumstances in my life at just the right time. Just as much as the times of comfort God gives me are placed at the right points of my life, so are the downfalls.
Patience is something that I am becoming to understand but also forever trying to get a grip on, because God will place the desires of my heart when the time is right.
"For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven" (Ecclesiastes 3:1, ESV)
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Now playing: Switchfoot - Enough To Let Me Go
via FoxyTunes
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Thankful Wednesday
I think as life has been pretty up and down as of lately, I need to not worry about if things are not playing out how I would expect and sometimes I feel down in a ditch. I want to be continuously thankful for all the things God has given me. So one day a week I will be posting something I want to praise God for.
My life.
I don't deserve it, but God breath life into me so that I may do things for his glory.
He has brought me through so much already and I am glad that he has. I think ultimately I need to be thankful for my life everyday, that God has given and will give me each new day to rejoice in, to grow in my relationship with him and to be used for his glory.
Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. (Ephesians 5:2, ESV)
My life.
I don't deserve it, but God breath life into me so that I may do things for his glory.
He has brought me through so much already and I am glad that he has. I think ultimately I need to be thankful for my life everyday, that God has given and will give me each new day to rejoice in, to grow in my relationship with him and to be used for his glory.
Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. (Ephesians 5:2, ESV)
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Late Night Blogging Sesh
First real blog post for 2011, no expectations and no ideals. I'm just going to be blogging from the heart, because that's what my blog is for.
I feel so happy to be starting anew again, but at the same time I feel completely lost.
I've known for a while that my life still goes on without the things I thought were really important to me and I'm glad that it does. The downside is that I'm still feeling pretty low, I turn 23 this year and I feel like life is beginning all over again for me this year.
I'm single for the fourth time in my life and there's only so much one girl's heart can take a breaking of before she feels like love has no chance of happening again. I keep thinking in my mind that if no one so far has committed to keeping me, then what is the chance of it ever happening? I feel like my heart is just something that means nothing and that it's okay to abuse it's love. How the heck do guys think it's okay to pull a girl through a long, meaningful relationship, only to drop it like it means nothing? That kind of crap just messes me up. I hate it.
When will a man ever treat me with respect and love me enough to not just say "yes, I want to spend the rest of my life with YOU", but to actually go through with it? I'm beginning to lose my hope in a life spent with a man that I can share love with and raising a family.
It's not fair, I have all this love in my heart and no significant other to share it with, without it being rejected. I feel like there's something incredibly wrong with me, that's so terrible that absolutely no one has the ability to see past it and love me.
Guys are jerkweeds, kick 'em in the groin.
I feel so happy to be starting anew again, but at the same time I feel completely lost.
I've known for a while that my life still goes on without the things I thought were really important to me and I'm glad that it does. The downside is that I'm still feeling pretty low, I turn 23 this year and I feel like life is beginning all over again for me this year.
I'm single for the fourth time in my life and there's only so much one girl's heart can take a breaking of before she feels like love has no chance of happening again. I keep thinking in my mind that if no one so far has committed to keeping me, then what is the chance of it ever happening? I feel like my heart is just something that means nothing and that it's okay to abuse it's love. How the heck do guys think it's okay to pull a girl through a long, meaningful relationship, only to drop it like it means nothing? That kind of crap just messes me up. I hate it.
When will a man ever treat me with respect and love me enough to not just say "yes, I want to spend the rest of my life with YOU", but to actually go through with it? I'm beginning to lose my hope in a life spent with a man that I can share love with and raising a family.
It's not fair, I have all this love in my heart and no significant other to share it with, without it being rejected. I feel like there's something incredibly wrong with me, that's so terrible that absolutely no one has the ability to see past it and love me.
Guys are jerkweeds, kick 'em in the groin.
Saturday, January 01, 2011
2011 Expectations
As I welcome in the new year I have thought briefly about what this year will be for me and what it may bring. I never have put any expectations on this year, except for a few things I want to aim towards.
I aim to be true to myself, to be honest and to be loyal to the people that I hold close to my heart. I want to be passionate about God's love so much that it directs me and speaks through my everyday life. I want to be more real about my faith and not go at my walk with God half-hearted, I want to be committed whole-heartedly to my relationship with God. I already feel pretty blessed about where I am in life, living in Adelaide, being single and having my family and friends, I want to continue feeling joyful and thankful about those things.
Twenty eleven will be the year where I am continuing my journey in Youth Work, but it will also be my first year studying YW with Tabor Adelaide. I'm really excited about it and I'm really thankful that I have the chance to spend the next three years of my life studying the area that's on my heart.
I'm also excited about the new opportunities for friendships this year, whether it be at school or church or elsewhere. Not just that, but continuing to spend copious amounts of time with my current friends.
Something else I have planned for this year is to travel somewhere again, outside of Australia. I'll probably just go to to USA again and probably Canada, but only what matters most is if I'll be with my friends. I've had a dream for a long time that one year I'll be able to have a white Christmas and I hope this year I'll be able to experience that.
2011 I am here, hear me roar.
I aim to be true to myself, to be honest and to be loyal to the people that I hold close to my heart. I want to be passionate about God's love so much that it directs me and speaks through my everyday life. I want to be more real about my faith and not go at my walk with God half-hearted, I want to be committed whole-heartedly to my relationship with God. I already feel pretty blessed about where I am in life, living in Adelaide, being single and having my family and friends, I want to continue feeling joyful and thankful about those things.
Twenty eleven will be the year where I am continuing my journey in Youth Work, but it will also be my first year studying YW with Tabor Adelaide. I'm really excited about it and I'm really thankful that I have the chance to spend the next three years of my life studying the area that's on my heart.
I'm also excited about the new opportunities for friendships this year, whether it be at school or church or elsewhere. Not just that, but continuing to spend copious amounts of time with my current friends.
Something else I have planned for this year is to travel somewhere again, outside of Australia. I'll probably just go to to USA again and probably Canada, but only what matters most is if I'll be with my friends. I've had a dream for a long time that one year I'll be able to have a white Christmas and I hope this year I'll be able to experience that.
2011 I am here, hear me roar.
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