Strawberry Fields Forever

I have been meaning to update my blog but just haven't had the motivation to do so, until now.

The past week has been very different, very much like a mixture of all things good and bad, but mostly bad.

Started the week off pretty averagely, doing my online things for university and doing nothing much else besides watching Scrubs. Thursday was very stressful, I had a quiz on the Library Voyager System due that day and so I did it. But when it came to logging off during the quiz so that I could take a break, I accidentally sent in my answers. I unnecessarily over stressed for the next hour to then find out I could take another attempt at the quiz, if only I had looked at the home page before freaking out. So I took another attempt, sent it in and got 85% for it which isn't so bad.

Ever since that night I haven't been eating well. I'm not sure why, but I just have no urge at all of hunger, I even feel kind of sick when I look at food. Saturday I literally went the whole day without food, which was a bad idea because I came home from my school's reunion/fete so sick that I had to rest otherwise I would've just passed out. Fortunately I had a sub kind of roll to eat that night, but I still even now just don't feel like eating much. It's strange.

Today I have my induction for Brumby's. I'm not really looking forward to it as I have to be stuck there with mind-boring information until the evening.

I hope this week is better.

In good news, I watched the film Across The Universe the other night. Overall I think it was a pretty fantastic movie, the soundtrack is great, in fact I think I'm tempted to go out and buy it.

I Can't Hide It

It is present.
It is a weight.
It makes me think.
I try to hide it.
It grows.
It shows.
But no one else knows.

You're just too good to be true

I can't take my eyes off of you. *looks happily at her bed*

This weekend me, my mum, brother and two family friend families ventured to a town in the Barossa Valley region, Tanunda. We, for the past several years, go away every easter to a caravan park and live in tents for a few nights. It's quite a pain to pack, unpack, pack and unpack but it certainly is good to get away from the city and suburbia to a country town where there are only two pubs, a bistro, a couple of takeaway (fish & chip and pizza, none of that generic McDonalds) shops and a few other shops that specialize in all sorts of things.

Instead of explaining the whole holiday word for word, I think I'll just mention my five highlights and five lowlights of the weekend.

Highlights:
1. Relaxing in my camping chair doing nothing much.
2. Taking an annual visit to the famous Wohlers in main street.
3. Playing with the younger kids on the playground.
4. Going wine tasting on Sunday (trying Honey Mead, fermented honey, and delicious gourmet foods at the famous Maggie Beer's Farm Shop).
5. Having a good laugh at the clown show that night.

Lowlights:
1. Sleeping in a tent on a queen-sized mattress with my mum (I'm quite used to having my own double bed at home all to myself, which is why I'm so happy to be going to bed soon).
2. The youngest, Elisha who is 4, behaving a bit out of order at times... especially when being put to bed.
3. Having the roosters wake me up at only God knows what hour in the morning, every morning.
4. Not getting enough sleep consequently.
5. Too much chocolate and sugar.

I can't think much right now because it's heading very closely towards bed time and I am absolutely wrecked from this weekend, just generally because I didn't get enough sleep. I wish I had something profound or important to say but truth be told I didn't go to church (even though there was enough churches around Tanunda to pick from) this weekend, and I kinda wish I had so that I would've had the urge to think about the great sacrifice our Lord took so that we can have this life. There's just something about country churches that seems so homely.

So what did you do for Easter weekend?

New Beginnings

Finally, I have began my study at Flinders University. And I'm actually really enjoying it already. The tutor (there is another but she is away) is really nice and I've talked to some of the students through msn and myspace. Studying online is really interesting, some of the students find it complicated (all the oldies), but it actually isn't. We connect with each other and talk about the discussion topic and reading material through a forum kind of program.

Our discussion topic this week is: difficulties learning online. I'm finding it really hard to answer this, as I have only just began study online and I can't really find any flaws with it. Besides small things such as not having the face to face talk and having an instant answer to a question from a tutor (but they do often response to answers online usually within 24 hours, which isn't so bad). But overall I have many positives to studying online, mainly one I can think of is I don't have the ordeal of having to catch public transport to the other side of town. Whenever I do travel down that way, I usually try to make a day trip of it since it's so far away. Another is that I have the freedom of studying whenever and wherever I want. Ideally, someone who has a big issue with time management and too much procrastination may not suit online studying. I do struggle with this also, but not so much that it hinders me to not be able to study this way. I think this will improve my time management, which makes me hopeful.

On to other things in my life. I recently (last week) got a job at Brumby's/BP, which is actually less a complicating job than it sounds. I basically just work at the cash registers for BP, but also serve for the Brumby's section which is joined to the BP check-out. I haven't started work yet, as I have several training sessions, inductions and information sessions to attend to, but I get paid for attending to all of those anyway.

This weekend I am away camping (in a caravan park, it's really going to be an adventure) for this Easter weekend. Even as I type my mum is running around frantically packing things and checking lists so I should go help her.

Happy Easter everyone. May you not forget the true meaning behind this weekend. He was sacrificed so that we may be free.

"When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross. And having disarmed the powers and authorities, he made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross."
(Colossians 2:13-15)

Impatience Gets The Best Of Me

Ever had one of those times where you've had to wait for something, and not just for a couple of minutes or hours or even days... but almost over a whole week?

That is what I am still experiencing now. I've become so nervous about my application for university that I went in to Flinders last week to query as to what was happening with information being sent out and the like. It was kind of silly, as the date the application letter had to be signed and sent back was last Friday so it's pretty obvious that they would not send out anything until this week. Anyway, consequently, I received an answer of that same assumption. I guess I am just naturally impatient, because I have had nothing to do in the past few weeks and the knowledge of that I will be doing something with myself in two weeks excites me. So I have been checking the letterbox frequently, only to be disappointed almost every time. Hopefully something will arrive by the end of this week.

In other not-so-exciting news, job hunting seems to be leading no where good. I've had several interviews and dozens of applications but yet still no offer. It does get me down, especially when I receive letter after letter and email after email inscripted with things I do not want to hear. Kind of makes me feel hopeless. :(
Maybe one day...